Can't live with em'........

So we've all heard the expression "can't live with em, can live without em" pure understated bull s***. For starters that doesn't even make sense, either you can or you can't...there's really no gray area when it comes to living with someone right??? That being said I've found myself in a bit of a dilemma....So BD*babydaddy* still hasn't kicked in yet but Im figuring the money i spend on child care i could just put to helping him get a J.O.B. and pocket the rest. The catch 22 of it is if he doesn't find a job in say 2 months then I'll be putting him up for however long.....S*** can a sista get a break lol....and I just got a second job so im working 6 days a week, starting august 17 ill be back in school part time and making sure some way some how im giving my beautiful babygirl the quality time she deserves....and this n**** still wanna b**** about what im doing, who im dating, and how i make my money...BOY STOP!!!!(that's some southern twang for your a**) Just this year I began to take responsibility for my own life, helping my mother pay bill, got my car...on the deans list at school...Men need to learn that women are built ford tough and childbirth only further equips us to deal with the heartache and pain that we will inevitably encounter in life and LOVE....SMH

Weak

In my best Coco from SWV voice "i get so weak in the knees i can hardly speak i lose all control and something takes over me"....lol but on the real I did it to myself again....let one of these "men folk" TOO close and of course what did he do....LET ME DOWN!!! There hasn't been a man in my life that hasn't including my pops... Now i know all us black women have our "daddy issues" but my s*** runs deep. I wouldn't even get into it too much but he was the one who made me see that no matter how long strong or intense the commitment is a man's going to do whats in his nature and that's lil wayne em' *if u don't know what that means think "every girl"* It has to be hard to be monogomous with a peen...d*** just flapping in the wind waiting for something..ANYTHING TO DO...the dude was sweet and we were only talking for like a week but what did i really expect...A MIRACLE???what the bumba clot was i thinking?????

The Baby Daddy

So if you didn't know, I have a beautiful 1yr old daughter who is the light of my life and my MAIN motivating force...her father on the other hand is like many black men with children....A DEAD BEAT..you may ask why a beautiful women such as my self has to hound down a man for 20 no 10 dollars a month to help support something he help create....well the answer is simple as this....he has a d***. there I said it...while it may be true that there are dead beat mothers *though i can't see how you went through childbirth and it f***ing up your body then leaving* its rare you find a mother that doesn' WANT to be involved let along mother nature constantly telling you, you NEED to be involved....look how huge my boobs got from breast feeding.....

and it was all worth it.....having a d*** must make you less apt to care for something that isn't directly connected to you such as your clothes your house your car and your jump offs...all that takes priority over your seed I GUESS!? when i met him he didn't have much and nothing has changed...see im no baller but i go to school full time work part time and for damn sure take care of mine so what is his excuse....Reccession?? Being black in america??? shut the s*** up grow some balls and man up....im black in a reccession and a woman I DEFINATELY HAVE MORE COUNTED AGAINST ME YA DIG!!!